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I woke up this morning missing you like you'll never know. I dream about you. Sometimes when I'm alone I can hear your laughter fill the room. It was such a distinct laugh. It meant that everything was right in the world. On Sunday I would watch you singing your heart out in the choir, shouting about how good our God is. We didn't tell the preacher that on Friday night you were singing down-home blues at the top of your lungs, sipping your Hennessy. You loved the blues. You loved playing tonk till midnight in the projects. That was fun you'd say... for you. I wanted to go to bed :-)

I can almost hear you singing right now. Z.Z. Hill was your favorite blues singer. I can feel you from when you would hug me so tight and tell me, "everything is gonn be alright" and how much you loved me. I remember when you were mad at me. That never lasted long. Every year on my birthday you would call me and sing the Happy Birthday song to me. I would call you and ask if you needed anything, anything at all, and you would say, "I need you to be happy".

I don't know if I could have truly expressed how proud I was of you, but I was so proud of you. I remember you saying, "you know I did the best I could with you..." And yes, I know that. I know that you loved me like no other on this earth. Your best was more than good enough. IT WAS!

And I loved you. I still love you so much. I know I was your hope and I know I am your dream. I know that you couldn't go on anymore. I know your body was letting you down although you wanted to stay for us. I'm glad you have no more pain but I have pain now missing you every day. It's been almost four years now, so it's getting easier. Knowing you're with our God helps me get through.

I love and miss you every day. I'm OK now. Standing on my own. Holding you in my heart.

I love you mamma and I always will.

W. Maxine Perry
1945-2009

If you're reading this, tell them you love them before it's too late.

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  • Marsha Douglasville, Ga.

    This was in such a beautiful letter. I can relate because my mother has also passed on in June 1998. It was 4 days after my birthday. She is always missed, it never goes away. I believe she will always be in the hearts and memories of those who love her still. It gets easier with time. I am her daughter and have her DNA and because of that she is a part of me and I her. I told her I loved her and she knew it by my actions. I remember her with love and gratitude for caring for me as best she could until I eventually took care of her in the last years. No regrets for either one of us. I now feel a peaceful feeling thinking of her everyday. May God bless those who remember and not forget. Peace unto you.

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  • Elaine Sanders Dallas,Tx

    MY DEAR TYLER PERRY, I FIND IT AMAZING THAT I RECEIVE THIS HEART FELT MESSAGE FROM YOU AT THIS TIME-I TOO MISS MY MOTHER, BEING A SEASONED WOMAN OF 67 I CAN TELL YOU IT WILL NEVER END, WE JUST LEARN TO COPE, BUT I MUST SHARE SOMETHING WITH YOU I AM MISSING MY SON ALSO WHOM IS NOT DECEASED, HE HAS DECIDED TO ISOLATE HIS SELF FROM ME FOR WHATEVER REASON, HAD A DREAM THAT YOU AND I WERE AT A GATHERING AND I APPROACHED YOU, TAKING YOUR HAND IN MINE BEFORE I COULD SPEAK THE HOLY SPIRIT TOLD ME TO TELL YOU ABOUT THIS, HIS NAME IS SEAN JOSEPH SANDERS- PLEASE PRAY FOR US- NEED TO HAVE A CHANCE TO LET HIM KNOW HOW MUCH I DO LOVE HIM AND EVEN THOUGH HE IS A GROWN MAN I STILL MISS HIM- LOVE YOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO LET IT OUT

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  • Sharon Atlanta, GA

    Thank you so much...I need this at this exact moment, My mom just passed July 10th, 2013 the worst day of my life and I am the only child, I miss her soooo much the person who loved me more than anything in the world is gone And I can't breath, I can't sleep, I can't eat, My soul is sad and my heart is full of pain and grief...thou I am crying everyday now and I have not learn to live with this pain yet...I am taking it one day at time...I LOVE her move than life itself...I am glad for her that she is in the present of the Lord...But I am devastated for me...How do I live and go on without her, My Love, My Rock, My motivation, My Safe place.... My Mom's Daughter Sharon Graves

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  • Diana Portsmouth, OH

    Your message to your mother was very touching. I knew immediately who you were talking to when I started reading it. It makes me think of my own mother and her frailties that tell me one day I'll have to say goodbye, has you have. It breaks my heart to think about it and also makes me cherish the time we have together, whether we are doing shopping or sitting at her house just talking and spending time together. I'm trying to bottle up those times together as much as I can. Thank you for sharing your heart with us.

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  • Denisa Manchester, CT

    Tyler, if you don't mind me saying. I lost my mother it will be five years on August 8, 2013. What you wrote went straight to my soul and of course brought tears to my eyes. Everyday I see my mother in my mirror because I've grown to look more like her. I find myself asking where am I or say mom can i see myself now? Odelia (my mom) could and would sing until all she could do was hum. I still remember when mom, sis and I would sing together to represent our church when they had to be somewhere else and we could afford to go with them (I mean the timeframe in coming back would be too late when we had school for the next morning). I miss her in the kitchen trying out new recipes and then refining them to reflect her style; the way she brushed my hair into a french bun. Seeing the joy in her eyes when she saw her grandchildren and the hurt them when she could do what she wanted to do for them. I truly understand what you're feeling and although there's comfort in knowing that she's in heaven resting with GOD, I still hurt and miss her. God bless you.

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  • Jo Ann Philly

    Mr. Perry, this note to your Mom has really touched my heart this morning. I don't know what it feels like to lose a Mother, but I do know how it feels to lose a Grandmother and this just reminds me of my Grandmother. I know your Mom is smiling down from heaven so proud of the man that you have become. I just recently came to the realization that when our love ones are sick and in so much pain, it's selfish of us to want them to stay here with us. It's hard to say goodbye. But I would rather no more pain for them. So, when my Grandmother the Matriarch of our family went on to Glory it was the day after my 40th birthday. I would never forget that as long as I live. Both of my Grandparents passed the same year, first my Grandfather, he was such a humble man, a man of Valor, integrity and the Monarch of our family. They both were in pain and now no more suffering. The same for your Mom, she is no longer in pain and like you said each year it gets a little easier. Keep up the good work. Your fans are with you in all that you do.

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  • lashonda mobley Miami

    Mr.Tyler Perry my family and I have so much love for u.I mean that in the most respect.Your letter was sooooo heart felt, I can relate to your feelings.I didn't loose my mom; but I lost grand mother; and my God she was a mother to me.It's been twenty years I still miss her so much.I miss her stories..her advice..her wisdom..and her prayers.Stay strong; keep remembering the times; and remember what she tought u an d expect from you..God bless..My children and I ALWAYS PRAY FOR YOU.

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  • Ashley Kester South Africa

    It is really sad knowing that we have to say goodbye to them sometime. It is true, but this is not our home. We are not hear to stay. We just passing through this earth. We will meet them someday in the air. There is no evidence but I have faith in God and believe in Him.

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  • Marietta N Nairobi,Kenya

    She misses you too...May the good Lord watch over you and keep you strong.I really appreciate you sharing this.Forever in my Prayers...

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  • Shei Kenya

    What sparked you today to think of your Mom, Tyler, is divine. Divine because Jesus wanted you to be the one reminding all of us who have sickly mothers at the moment, to tell them how much they mean to us...how much we love them...have always loved them. Now I am gonna do just that in a minute or so, thanks to you. Your Mom should be very proud of you...I'm sure she is right up there...Cheers.

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  • Mbafan Aondoakaa Nigeria

    Dear Tyler Perry, I read your email this morning with tears in my eyes, I lost my mum suddenly to a heart attack in 2010, I had spoken to her just before bed, when I woke up she was dead, we were on different continents. She had traveled for eye surgery abroad. I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye. I was her lastborn, we were extremely close. My heart broke at having to plan my mums funeral, I was the only one with my father and he couldn't do it. Having my mother come back in a coffin is the worst thing I have ever experienced. My mother who joked and laughed with me the day she was leaving, came back to me a corpse. I prayed and prayed while they were trying to revive her. She had travelled with our eldest sister. She was an extremely religious woman, a model Christian, I prayed that the God she had believed in and worked so much for would save her, but God said it was time. Now I am thankful I had an amazing mum, she taught me values, she taught me that there are no limitations in life. I miss her all the time, I dream of her, I love her, I am still making my peace with her passing.

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  • Teresa Kalamazoo

    My mom passed on Aug. 12, 2013....Sorry for your Loss....Her name was Tujuana Dean Peery ( Pronounced Perry ) like your last name, she was 52...She would have turned 53 on July 26, 2013...

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