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I Still Miss You

I woke up this morning missing you like you'll never know. I dream about you. Sometimes when I'm alone I can hear your laughter fill the room. It was such a distinct laugh. It meant that everything was right in the world. On Sunday I would watch you singing your heart out in the choir, shouting about how good our God is. We didn't tell the preacher that on Friday night you were singing down-home blues at the top of your lungs, sipping your Hennessy. You loved the blues. You loved playing tonk till midnight in the projects. That was fun you'd say... for you. I wanted to go to bed :-)

I can almost hear you singing right now. Z.Z. Hill was your favorite blues singer. I can feel you from when you would hug me so tight and tell me, "everything is gonn be alright" and how much you loved me. I remember when you were mad at me. That never lasted long. Every year on my birthday you would call me and sing the Happy Birthday song to me. I would call you and ask if you needed anything, anything at all, and you would say, "I need you to be happy".

I don't know if I could have truly expressed how proud I was of you, but I was so proud of you. I remember you saying, "you know I did the best I could with you..." And yes, I know that. I know that you loved me like no other on this earth. Your best was more than good enough. IT WAS!

And I loved you. I still love you so much. I know I was your hope and I know I am your dream. I know that you couldn't go on anymore. I know your body was letting you down although you wanted to stay for us. I'm glad you have no more pain but I have pain now missing you every day. It's been almost four years now, so it's getting easier. Knowing you're with our God helps me get through.

I love and miss you every day. I'm OK now. Standing on my own. Holding you in my heart.

I love you mamma and I always will.

W. Maxine Perry
1945-2009

If you're reading this, tell them you love them before it's too late.

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  • Cynthia Scott Los Angeles, CA

    Touching moment

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  • a. wetisby moragne U.S.A.

    Dear Mr. Perry and Mrs. Perry : That is a very high and rare quality of true, pure and everlasting love you shared . I thank both of you for allowing me in . I recognized the magnitude and supreme level of love instantly in the writing . I learned in the shared moment that it does exist i.e., the kind of love that I've always imagined . It's even more clear to me now how you reached where you are and where you are going to in this life and beyond. These kinds of shared moments in a person's most deep and personal trajectory are great wealth of lasting value . I cannot thank both of you with out ceasing for adding great wealth to my life of the highest level: truest and purest eternal love with out question or doubts ever . In my way of being, I jumped into the shared truth and really still feel as if I were there experiencing it as you both spoke to one another . Isn't that truly an amazing grace from both of you . Thanks forever . I never expected this when I eagerly wished to read your most current message . Beyond the most over flowing thanks and regards , A. Wetisby M.

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  • Doreen Pena Fayetteville, NC

    Tyler, I loss my mom this past October. Her birthday would have been this 4th of July where ny 4 sisters, 2 brothers and all theier children and grandchildren come home to sing happy birthday. From mothers day till resently it has been so perplexing . I didnt go home to Massachusetts for the 4th for the 1st time...but as you stated to know shes out I f pain, sitting w the Lord...has to be the key to letting go...I was blessed to have her fir 54 yrs of my life..92 yrs shes blessed this world...thanks for sharing that beatiful message. Much love to you!

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  • Karen

    Loosing your mom is harder than people realize until it happens. My mom passed on a few years ago and I still talk to her on a regular basis.

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  • Myesha VA

    To hear a man express how he feels about his mother is so Refreshing! When we love from the heart that's an Awesome place. Keep your head up! And know that she is proud of you, because you used her Spirit to create some Great work!

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  • Joyce baggett joplin, mo

    I love the message that you have for your mama. I lost my mama in November 1st and it doesn't seem like it never gets any better. I miss her so so so very much she was my best friend my confident. I just miss her so I know how you feel hopefully i is easier in time. I lost my dad 4 years ago in May and I thought that was really hard. anyway I know how you feel and I wanted to let you know how much joy and love and hope you bring to us. I just wanted to let you know how I felt. God bless you!!!

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  • Narges O Hamburg

    Beautiful it touches my heart . Much Love to you !

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  • Flor

    This was beautiful

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  • Sondra A Wisconsin

    OMG! I was eighteen when my mom passed, and this passage is really touching, she joined the Lord 30 years ago August, and these words feels so much how I'm feeling right now...

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  • Mary LaPorte,tx

    My mother went to be with the Lord on July 31, 2010. Yesterday was rough. But I made it. I read your article and it helped me tremendously remembering the good times I shared with my mother. Our laughs together, our talks, and how much I miss her. Thank you for this article Mr. Tyler Perry. Be Blessed!

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  • LKWalton Havre de Grace

    That was an absolutely beautiful sentiment!

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  • Carol Porter Dallas, Texas

    Hello Tyler, I wanted to speak on this when I first read it but my grief gripped me for a moment. This is a beautiful conversation to your Mom. On July 4, my niece lost her husband whom I hadn't met in person, still it opened the wounds left by the deaths of my husband (March 24, 2013), as well as, my sister (transitioned June 25, 2005) and brother (born June 25). Because of these significant dates, along with Father's Day and Memorial Day, I had gone to their graves a few times and then I read this beautiful tribute to your Mom. I had to regroup. I can't say I know how you feel because thank God I still have my Mom, but I know how I miss the three I mentioned. My heart cries for and with you and though we will always miss them, we learn to concentrate and remember only the joy they brought to us. I know she is looking down smiling and saying, "That's my boy, that's my baby, didn't he make a fine man, my heart is bursting with pride." She did good. She raised a man that is doing us all proud. I love, respect and admire you, Tyler Perry. Thank your Mom and thank you for the laughs, the drama and all the blessings you give.

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    • Becki Hicks Ft.Walton Bch.Fl. #1858400

      Tyler,I enjoy your work so much.Being from Ms.i can relate to Big Momma.Everone needs a Granny like Big Momma.lol. Keep up the good work enjoy you so much.God Bless

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