I was looking through my personal photo album the other day, and I ran across some pictures of my mother from last year. I was looking at her face in these pictures...she was so happy. I had asked her to take a walk with me, as I was trying to get her to do a little exercise. She was so tired since she had just come in from dialysis, but whenever I asked her to do something she would always put on a smile and try it. She and I walked very slowly up her driveway. She was laboring but still so happy. She was telling me how much she loved her house and how thankful she was. She said she never would have imagined being able to live in such a fine house (her words). She said she always wanted to know what it was like to live like Mrs. Chancellor (from "The Young and the Restless") and wondered what it would be like to have a maid and "now I know" she said. We laughed about that for a second and then I asked her how that made her feel... she quickly said "loved." So, as I looked at that picture, I thought about that moment with tears in my eyes and I began to get really sad. Then I looked down at the bottom of the picture and saw the date, it was January 4th 2009.
I asked myself this question, if someone had told me that by the same time next year she would have passed, would I have any regrets? I thought about it for a few seconds and I can honestly say that I have no regrets. With that thought, I felt the greatest sense of peace come over me. I have no regrets. That is the best feeling. I know that I did everything in my power for her. I can truly say there is not one thing I would change. I didn't realize how much of a blessing that was until I thought about it.
I want to ask you that question today. Think about this...if I said to you, by this time next year, someone you love the most will not be here, would you have any regrets?
What a thought, right?
We waste so much time on petty grievances and arguments, being angry about things that don't really matter. If I can tell you anything, it would be to fix the things you have done wrong. We live in so much fear by not telling the people we love how much they mean to us, or never even revealing to them that we love them.
You don't want something to happen to the person you love and not have had to have a chance to fix it. Or, for something to happen and you let that person go to the grave not knowing they were truly loved. The guilt can be overwhelming.
So take some time today to mend some fences and make peace. Give some love and get some love. Even if you try and the other person doesn't want to hear it, you will rest better knowing that you tried to fix it, that you tried to share it. Just knowing you tried, period, is enough to give you peace.
This life is short and no man knows the day or the hour.