:-) & ...LoL... Here was the good parts I was thinking about while heading to the car. I was like, it was even better getting to see him in person before 2012 closed out. That's better than a magazine page photo any day! Yes! :-) And to have the opportunity to see u face to face actually is wonderful. It's so much better than nothing. What I would have been mad about is me NOT being there and u were there. You talking about having a fit. Lol.... Really to bring in this new year of 2013 and having u there is a BIG BLESSING! You know I can spot u out of a crowd of people. I am so glad I decided to move from where I first was seated. Which was the tip top last row of the top balcony. And it was hot up there. So, I made my way over to the other side, got me a seat. Ready to praise God. And when Bishop called your name. I zoom right in on you. I wasn't sure who that person next to u was. :o oh, well. :-) still don't know! But what I do wanna know is, was that one of your security guys or ours? Anyway, he standing up there talking about, not right now. My thought about is, if not right now when? Thank u for holding your hand out. I appreciate you. It was pleasant! It was pleasant. Good I didn't pass out right there. That just would've been too much! LOL... OMG! Bishop had said, touch so and so and say, "your best days are ahead of you." Hello! You were there sooo, who else I was gonna tell it to? You! My opportunity! I love it. :-) That's so wonderful. Question is, did u receive what I told u? I hope so! Cause I receive your out reached hand. I tell u that....LoL... I wish that I could have this moment for life, 4 life! Wow! One night with the king changes everything! Like, break every chain. Ok, I believe I can now prepare myself for bed.
Do u think a woman should come on to a man? My sons wasn't with me tonight. I knew it would be easier to find a seat for one much better than for the three of us. So, I had to pick Tai up for 9pm. I told D'Andre I had to get ready to go. He said, go where? I told him to Watch Night Service for New Years. He talking about, what we gonna do then? I said to him, you wanna get dressed & go to church? You guessed right! His answer was no! And he shut up & went on about his business. Of course, by time I did get back & got dressed & ready to go. I got Tai taking pictures of me all outside! Lol... Lol... But I was viewing it from my phone all the way there. The parts that wasn't freezing up. :-) Man! Man! Man!
This is not going to be a music night. At least, not to my knowledge, anyway. So, I made it in. That ride was long, too! Like I said, I'm too happy to be mad or upset. I just don't know what to do! I can't even tell u what Bishop was talking about cause I was just too through when he said, you were in the house! Lol... :-) And after shaking your hands & looking in your face & eyes. I was like not there anymore, Gone, I tell u! :-) It was good seeing u & touching u. Then I have to ride home having this conversation with myself. That I don't even understand what is happening. But I got some great expectations, I tell u that much. Lol... You know how u be saying, "that's crazy ain't it?" I finally gotta admit, that's crazy ain't it, too? Oh well, I done seen worse. Y'all have got to stop! I don't know how much more of this U can take! Just so, you know it. OMG!
Face To Face; Heart To Heart; Cheek to Cheek; Head in Chest & Hand in Hand. That's my hope, faith & love. :-) And not a shame. She shall be called.... For she is.... Woman! I am so up, right about now. What are you doing? Are you awake? I am
:-) LoL... Well, I have a couple of choices of to do tonight. 1) Madea Goes To Jail Movie; 2) Do a little cooking or 3) Talk with you all night! Lol.... Prepare yourself I have decided to go with 3. So, what are you doing, T? I'm going to start off with this first song, then who knows. I hope you're not busy. Christmas 2012! How at you feeling? I'm not yet sure what all the conversation will be able but we gonna start somewhere. All I want for Christmas is you. So...... What you think I'm gonna do? :-) Get what I ask for. Right On! ...LoL.... :-) Yes! You ready? All night long. :-)
It's about 10AM, I've made it back from Tai driving us to his school. It's better & better each time. So, I head back to the apartment & decide to jam to some Love & Happiness. I get here, I sit there to listen to it once more b4 coming inside. A neighbor of mines in headed to work, right up a few blocks. She says, she's almost late. So, I turn around & say to her, come on I'm take u. I must was sitting out here so I could take u. And what do u know!? My car WON'T START! REALLY? SMH!!! So, she still has to walk & its windy, windy, windy. And I was set to meet up with T for lunch this afternoon! Wow! I had to text Tai, right away & let him know. Also, I asked did he have bus fare or train fare on him. He does so, that's ok. He's off today. That's the one reason I choose today for lunch. Being I wouldn't have to go pick him up, get him to work back & forward. When he's off of work I therefore, don't have to rush to get him at 4pm & have him at work b4 5pm. All that driving! So, Thursday was our day, we were finally going to hook up & get a little time together. Am I mad? No, I'm not mad or upset. These are the times I have to sit back & wonder, now what's all this about? Dee is at work. It's not the battery. The maintenance supervisor in our apartments was outside so, he connected the cables to his & my car & still my car won't start. Smh! Tai's reply to me was, what are we going to do? All I could say back is, Pray & Call on Jesus Tai! Now, tears are flowing. :-) Do u ever pray without opening your mouth? I do! There was times like this that I would focus my attention to the fact that their fathers wasn't here. I NO LONGER do that!!! That's for sure! Doing that was healthy or helpful. It only gave me more to be mad at & hurt behind. Now, even though I don't know what's next. I just thank God that Tai don't have to be at work TODAY right after school. Rom.8:28 this I do know. Ttyl T! This too shall pass. So, let me go ahead & get my rejoicing ON! :-) Gotta Go! Victory!!!!!
T, I must say, Thank you for all your many of years of pouring into us such creativity, beauty, love, fun, excitement, laughter, craziness & truth. Amongst so much more. I appreciate you more than I know how to express myself. What u don't know is as I'm typing in these messages most times I have to pause just to come up with the right words. I'm not so sure on how I'm doing with it though. Anyway! LOL... I'm very much aware that a woman shouldn't chase a man. Keep in mind, I'm not chasing you. I'm following you. Lol.. did I mention to you that this summer we were all over to my aunt's house having a family cookout. One of our guy cousins was in town from Vegas. And one of my girl cousins said to me, Girl, you just about a second away from stalking Tyler. I said, What! That I don't do! Anyway, I didn't come to speak on that. I came to let u know, I think of you as so strong, such a go getter, trend setter, out the box kind of a person with so much love & patience & tenderness & so in touch. There is not another you. You are definitely in a class all by yourself. Let me not leave out serious, too! I love it! :P Everything about you is UNIQUE!!!!! And I personally will like to get to know the whole person of yourself. There is no one else that I would like to get to know other than yourself. Enjoy the journey :o !!!! Every minute of it! I am! Lol... :-) Thank you so much. You are a treasure, A jewel to me. I hope that's okay with you. Heartbeat! And I enjoy listening to you & hearing from you. I can't get enough. LOL... I can't get enough of your loving!! LOL :P This is too good, yes, it is & I like it!!! Ok, I will stop right here for tonight. :o ...LoL... Question: do u ever wonder or ask yourself -Who is she(Sheneith)? Have a good Thursday. My Friend Girl T we are meeting up for lunch. I'm glad cause its been really long since we seen each other. So, we decided to hook up before Christmas & at least before this year ends. Which means I need to be sleep. Good night. Plus, Tai got to drive me again in the morning. I hope you're praying for us. And thank you too. Cause for some reason, I believe you are. I receive it, too! :P
I see myself as the woman who's attention is designed for her man, her children, & her family. Moreso, I would like for my attention to be solely for the love & care of my man. I don't want it to be on no job, project, etc... I don't care to give my attention to too many people. How would this world be if we each knew where to place our attention? And place it there? That's a big job all by itself. And let my tell it. It's the most important one of all. A happy woman make a happy home. Lol... :-) And a happy man will provide a home & everything else that's needed & when its needed. That's some good stuff! :P Also, I being female DON'T wanna dress up to impress anyone else but only him! I love it!!! I don't feel like I must compete with any female/anyone for that matter. I am Sheneith! And there is not another me. I am who I am! They can like me or not like me. And I'm able to deal with both! However, I don't kiss butt. I'm fine with being left alone. :-) That will work even better for me, than pretending. For one, I don't pretend very well. I tend to believe that ppl lose their authentic selves when they pretend to be something and or somebody they're not. And I have no time for those little games. I'm content with being who I was created & purposed to be. :-) Thank you for listening. I been thinking about u! That goes without saying! :-) ttyl...
This is what I dream of & believe for myself. I see myself happily married to the man that's first a friend of mines. Who loves & care for me & my sons. The person I can be myself around & with. We both enjoys each others company, conversation, time, mind, thoughts, presence, touch, etc. We're able to speak to each other about our past without it being any problem. I wouldn't want to be with a man where he & I can't stand one another. Or he & I faking to put on a show for others. I want he & I to be able to be happy whether anybody else knows why or not! Better yet, I would like for others to look at he & I and say to themselves, I really would want someone special in my life like that, as well. :-) lol... I want the type of relationship that nothing can come between he & I. And for sure, can't nobody come & tell either one of us anything about the other. That's a no-no! This type of relationship isn't something u can have with just any somebody! I must have love, respect, honor, trust, commitment, faith & God/Jesus/The Holy Spirit, 1st of all! And FUN, FUN, FUN! Yes! LOL... Someone to which we can just stare into each others eyes, hold hands, talk without saying a word. And feel each others heartbeat. :-) We're comfortable with laying in each others arms. And I do not need all that Reality TV stuff. All I care about is the two of us being happy with one another. Loving one another, growing together with one another, happy to see one another. And when we must be apart from each other we're secure enough with one another that we both can't wait just to be back into each others presence, space, arms. :P lol... We gonna live off l-o-v-e. Lol... Lol... I wonder what kinda stuff we gonna be talking about. Hmmm.... Family, life, the future, the past, the present -all of it, some of everything! Laughing, talking, making faces, talking noise in love. :P And he gonna cook for me. I'm gonna cook for him too. Love & Happiness. And after about 20yrs we gonna start looking like we sister & brother. Have u seen any couples photos where they start to look as if they are related after so long? Lol... Do u believe in two becoming one? Don't fear
T, you know the younger child comes along. And it SEEMS as if they get away with more. But what it is, is after a parent or parents have raised the bigger one or once. A parent learn how to chill out, calm down, not freak out SO MUCH. Whereas the older sibling(s) sometimes believe that that child is favored more than theirself. What children don't know is being a mother isn't a easy job. There are so many levels you go thru, so many curves & turns; tears & pain that.... That you can't explain. You just DO IT! Sometimes others might not understand it & for the most part u, yourself don't even understand. But somehow or another you all make it. :-) And I will change the subject & say this: the problem that this world is facing is NOT a gun problem!!! It's a FAMILY PROBLEM!!!! Right now they wanna point the blame to guns. That's not it, at all. It's a family issue. Whether they know it or not or whether ANY1 choose to admit it OR NOT. Oh, they can claim mental problem if they want to. That's a LIE! It's A FAMILY PROBLEM!!!! Ttyl...
Child... LOL.. No, seriously, Soooo, this morning Tai drove up to his school safely. I just don't understand why they must pay $250 for a Driver's Ed Course & they can't drive the Instructor around until after they have completed the course, got papers signed from school, go to DMV & pass test, get driver's permit & then complete so many hours of driving w/ parent, etc before they get to drive the Instructor around for so how many hours. That's crazy to me! They just getting peoples money. Anyway, Tai did well. I'm just not cut out for all that. Why? For one, I'm his parent. I'm serious. I don't play. And I mean business. But this child has to have the experience to do so. And the good part is, when he has it all down packed, he & I will know it. When I did learn to drive. It sure wasn't with my mom. The times she took me to practice it was nerve racking. After that I just drove other ppl cars around town til I got my own. I was 15 or 16 yrs old. We didn't live in Dallas neither. You will drive for yourself & others here in Dallas,Tx everytime u get behind a wheel. Bless him heart. :-) The other good part is, I'm now gonna have myself a driver! Lol... My mom sure did! Dee that dude would drive mom to store after store after store on Saturdays just to be driving. And she did a lot of window shopping. He didn't care; just as long as he was driving all while she was shopping inside the mall. He knew she would be hours in there. Lol... He drive Concrete Trucks right now. That's James! As for Tai, I believe he will do well. Do u recall me saying to you, as mothers we too make mistakes? Mostly, because we want the best for our children. And especially being the only parent they must call on. As we have made it thru all these years. I/we must trust that He'll see us thru just fine even now. Eph.3:20 I'll be sure to let u know when I get passed my nervousness. And let's just hope none of it rub off on him(Tai). What I can say, is I'm not depressed, anger, hurt, sad or mad about being the only parent to my two sons, that's for sure, sure!!! :o !!! And if He kept us when I couldn't even imagine it to be real. SURELY, He continue to be Faithful & Reliable & a Comforter. I trust! :-)
:-) My niece & I had such a wonderful fulfilling visit on today. Crystal is 28 yrs old, she'll be 29 this coming March. Her & D'Andre b-days are the 3th & 4th of March. I learned something I didn't know about us- my family on today. I thought it was just me, but I'm learning that its also apart of my family & us being raised up the way we were. In our household, with my father & mother. Lol... I'll tell u later. Hint: we stay to ourselves. Not all of us but for the most part. I haven't talked to little Mrs Paulette in a minute. It's all good! Mom is back from Houston now. Kay is now about to be a stay-at-home mom to baby Chloe. :-) What u got planned for This Christmas, T? And or this New Year? Well, my eyes are pretty much tired. So, I'm gonna get ready for bed. I'll talk with... Have a good night. And Merry Christmas to you & yours... I love you! :-)